Lay Offs

I hate this part of my job.
I had to lay 12 people off today.
I feel like I have a paved road leading directly to hell.
I feel crappy...hate it. I know some will say that's my job and that's what I am getting paid for but I hate this.
I try my best to justify my doings; it's business, it's all about business and how to float it.
Well, it still doesn't make me feel better.
I know people will go home and cry about it.
What would Alemwork tell her five kids tonight?
What would Grace tell her 8 year old son tonight???
What would any of them tell their family tonight?
Then tomorrow...
No purpose to get up and get ready....no place to go.
I wish I can pass this cup from my job.
But I did it.
Right after, I e-mailed Chad of my deep depression. He called me right of way to make sure if I was okay....at least I have one who cares for me.
Plane tickets were purchased today for April.
I want to see the baby. I want to be there when the baby comes.

I still have a life.